All right, so uh... It's been over a year and a month since I last updated this journal...
I'm always busy, always working out ways of being more efficient, so my overall lack of output is... well, I hope it's an anomaly, because if it's common then that's just depressing.
I've stopped talking about in-progress things entirely because they have a highly established history of remaining in-progress until the cows come home, and I have an established history of just kind of letting my cows wander off and then I get more cows. I've had to stop myself from saying “Seriously, I'm about to put out something awesome, this is finally it!” several times.
Early last year I was contacted to do something really awesome and get paid for it and I had a ridiculous amount of creative freedom and I could have even just pooped out something quick and stupid if I'd wanted to and still gotten paid for it and so far I've completely flaked on it. (If you're one of the other people I've gotten involved in this, it's not canceled, I'm just... well, I'm me.)
I can't believe how good some of the stuff I'm doing and haven't shown anyone looks. I'm definitely not mistake free and there are plenty of people with much more talent as illustrators (drawing hands, for example, still slows me way down and usually requires human reference) but in terms of moving stuff around I'm at the point where I have to worry about my traditional-style animation being mistaken for rotoscoped.
I think I've improved a lot in terms of storytelling as well. This is more subjective but I'm confident in that regard too. I've only very recently discovered how to write really short stories without them inflating into lumbering giants that can barely stand up unless they're partially submerged in water. (I've never seen anyone else talk about this terrific secret formula and a couple of others I've discovered since December 2012. I'm not sure whether or not I want to give them away yet. Maybe later.)
Also I came up with what I think may be an new medium of animation. Depends on what you consider a “medium” to be but if str8nime gets to be its own medium then so does my thing so there.
To illustrate why I'm so crummy at getting anything done, here's a flowchart. It gets kind of angsty so I decorated it with Sanrio characters to lighten the mood:
This post doesn't necessarily mean I'm nearing Prolificity City but maybe acknowledging this problem publicly will do a better job at keeping me from continuing the cycle than just acknowledging it to myself while constantly feeling like I'm finally gonna break the cycle this time.
Which reminds me, I think I'm finally gonna break the cycle this time. My dedication is: If, by mid-April, I haven't finished this certain three-minute project, or at least gotten to where it's “in the bag”, I pretty much just need to give up so I don't just spend the rest of my life doing nothing. I'm supposed to be making animation because it's fun, not because of sunk cost.
Realistically though I don't see myself giving up anyway. Maybe just moving on to just comics and visual novel-type adventures or something for a while and possibly still falling into the same pits.
That said, I'm really confident about finishing this particular current thing and then all the progress I've made over the past year will open the gate to Prolificity City where all my cows are. I don't know if I or anyone else will like this particular thing once I've finished it but I'm at least confident that I'll finish it.
I'm really, really confident about that. I'm just not confident about my confidence.